Home alone today.
The feeling of staying home alone is kind of painful at times. Why have I never felt this way before when I was young? As we grow older, I realise that human beings needs companionship. It is hard to stay alone. Maybe this is only applicable to me. I feel so painful to be staying alone. Let alone for the rest of my life. My perspective has changed throughout the years and I still remember telling my sister that I can lived all by myself in future. Sad to say, this is not true and I have been lying to myself.
How I wish Captain L would reply my email soon! I really want to start working. The boredom the feeling of being aimless is really killing me. As I have more time on my hand, my mind just keeps running wild and this is something that I do not wish it to happen. I know I have to Face it, Accept it and Forget it. However, this is really tough. I also know that when I am able to do so, it also means that I am growing stronger.
Met up with my instructors few days back and it was really a good meet up. They make me realise life is not that simple after all, but also how you want it to be. Ok, I do not feel like typing anymore. I shall continue to watch my drama to kill my loneliness.
