Today marks the last year of my 20s! What have I achieved in the past 10 years? A degree and a CPL(ME)/IR. Isn’t this the greatest achievement one can get? But, I am not happy. It isn’t because I have not achieved enough, but rather, I wanted something else. Mostly importantly, I wanted a flying career. One that I can truly call it MY career. I know that my goal is reaching soon, but I just have to be patient. It doesn’t help when my love life is in a cripple too. I can’t seem to get the correct guy with the kind of character that I want.
Anyways, as usual, I spent my day alone, reflecting on what I have done in the past years. Birthdays are always not that enjoyable for me because I think I am a pretty negative person. However, this year I made an exception. I went to pay my respect to my loved ones. Isn’t this different? I didn’t ‘see’ them last year and so I made it a point to visit them when I am back in Singapore. I actually found peace after paying my respect to them. Though I am sad that I wasn’t able to see my paternal grandfather and my dad’s sister. I hope I can see them next year or so. I felt that it is important to visit them.
Somehow, I kept thinking about B. Find it hard to forget him. It’s like he has been haunting me for the past few months. How I wish I have something more to focus on so that I don’t have to keep thinking about him. I guess he came into my life at the wrong time. He came into my life at the time where I needed a companion so much. I haven’t been dating much and the worse thing is that I am ready to settle down. I am at the point where I want to settle down, but I know, such things can’t be rushed. Anyways, I guess we can’t make it as a couple too. He is too selfish. I really do not wish to keep holding on to something that is not possible. I really hope that the feeling will end soon.
On another topic, I am so looking forward to an email that would give me the biggest surprise. Let’s just cross my finger for that to happen and I will reveal it once it happens! *POSITIVITY*
And I cried again…
