3rd January 2009 marks the happiest day of my best friend’s life, her marriage to J. I attended and also helped out in her wedding as I have been waiting for years!!! I have been waiting for them to tie the knot. They are such a perfect couple! I love to be around them and also to hang out with them. Both of them are intellectual, smart, witty and etc. Countless of words that I can use to describe them, but all of fabulous meaning!
I was also very happy to see them walking down the ballroom as husband and wife. But at the same time, I was feeling empty too. Everyone wants a soul mate too, but I find it hard to find one. One that truly is able to listen and understands what I want.
Now I have embarked in this lonely journey to achieve my dreams. A dream that I have always talked about and relentlessly, put me into this. It is really tough, but who really understands what I am going true? A path of happiness, stress and sadness in times of me, unable to achieve my desired results that no one can share with me. How I wish that I could, but it just seems to be impossible to find that one.
I think I have given up on fate or rather on love. There simply isn’t a possibility of me, finding that soul mate, one that I will never find. Perhaps, I am to be left all alone in this world, with just little L and L2. But then again, as they grow up, they will have their own lives too. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps…
