It’s been quite sometimes since I last blog. Many things had happened in the past months. To keep this post really short, it wasn’t a good time at all. Half of it, I would say.
In April, I took a short trip up to look for the SJI guy. We had a short 1 week get away to the Perhentian Islands and Kota Bahru. It gave me great memories but at the same time, sad ones too. We cannot be together as he has decided that he can’t let his 6 yrs relationship go. So yes, I told myself that I should leave him, but at the same time, I could not really let go of him.
After which, I came back home and continued my normal life. He came back for a short while as his dad was sick and we met up. 1st met up was on his request and the 2nd on me. I think he was worried that things might turn out worst so on the 2nd met up, he told me that he will not see another person behind his girlfriend. And from then on, I know that everything is over, even the friendship.
I started to block him on MSN, and eventually deleted him on msn. How can someone tells me to not stop loving him while he loves someone else? Is that how all guys think? I really don’t understand this at all. For ladies, love can never be shared. I also refused to reply to all his emails and did not even attempt to look at the contents of the emails. They are still kept somewhere in my email.
For that matter, life has not been treating me well. Will there be a day where I can find my real soul mate and prove me that there is still someone out there for me. And when will that be?
