I got to know this guy recently and we only chat over msn for a period of time. He is current doing his flying training in Kelantan and is pursuing the same dream as me….TO BE A PILOT! =)
He came back for about 2 weeks and we hang out most of the time after my work or on weekends. It is a mutual thing that we totally enjoyed each other’s company. He tried to move on to the next stage, however, me being scared, rejected the idea and did not gave him the change to do any explanation. There was also a series of misunderstanding created and things kind of got messy. I suppose its all about the right timing. We are basically stuck at a wrong time and place.
He kind of confessed about his feelings indirectly, but I was so negative that I told him to let it go and that I am scared. With all these words, he made a very hasty decision to go back to his ex-gf. *Sigh* How can he make such a decision? I was disappointed at him. I was also shocked that he made that decision. It made me kind of sad for like 2-3 days. But now I’m back to normal.
He is a good guy I can say. Though what he did was not right and yes, I think I am being too nice too. My friends were all saying that he is no good for treating me like that! Oh well, to me, its just like that. I mean there is nothing to fault anyone since I was the one who rejected him and caused him to have so much confusing. Maybe I am being taken advantage of, really, but at the end of the day, I am just one happy girl. Therefore, it doesn’t really matter.
He is sweet. He told me about the things that he likes about me. Never had any guy tell me such things and of cause, I was touched. He told me that he had made that hasty decision with my words of ‘let it go and I’m scared’ running through his mind. He even said that all he wanted was for me to be happy and also that we can be really close friends. Cos deep down his heart, he has a place for me. How true these words are, I really am not sure. But 1 thing I know for sure is that the feeling is mutual and of cause, not forgetting such sweet stuff told to my ears! =) That’s more than enough!
Oh well, I do hope that he will get to do what he wants and yes, I will NOT wait for him as this is just a passing phase. We will just be really good friends, friends that I can share both my happiness, sadness and aviation stuff! It’s just like we’ve known each other for a long time.
