*Sigh* It’s a start of a not so good mood again. Though I’m feeling a lot better than 3 4 days ago, things are still not as good though. I think the philosophy that I have always believed in life has to be changed now. After going through a heart breaking relationship that I’ve fought hard to keep it alive, everything just broke down. I used to think that love is as simple as like that when I’m studying. I never thought that it would be that tough. Even when you want things to work on your part, it doesn’t mean that the other party wants to work things out with you. They may be selfish or they just can’t be bothered about how others feel. Love is such a complicated thing. I never knew that it’s so hard to maintain one after so many years. It really hurts so much to be not appreciated for all that you have done.
I just wonder why is it that things just can’t work out? Things just break down so easily when both party doesn’t look or feel the same way. It’s time to let it go and I need to really pull through this to let it go. I think I’m stupid to think that things would work when I put in extra effort to do so. To me, it doesn’t matter what/who/how the person is. As long as he is true to me, I’ll give in my best shot. But I suppose, I am not doing the right thing by letting my feelings sink deeper than my thoughts. I’m beginning to feel really stupid. I suppose I’m still a kid in a relationship and to go through all these is such a pain. I really felt like giving up. Perhaps staying all alone is good. You don’t have to worry so much, have your own space, and do your own things without too much worrying. But what is life without all these?
Maybe I am just a child who wants to hide away from things forever. Am I being childish?
