Finally, I took the courage to tell my Mum about A and me. I was surprise that she wasn’t shocked or had negative feelings about it. All I know is that she was very calm and told me that if we can’t be together, we can always be friends. But mummy, he is the one who is avoiding me now. I suppose its either he want to carve a name out for himself before he meets me again or that he just doesn’t want to see me anymore. I don’t know why I don’t trust him. I don’t trust that he wants to make things better between us. I just kept thinking that he doesn’t love me anymore. It hurts.
I think I am now more or less relieved that I had told my Mum that I was with A for awhile. That somehow or rather, makes me feel slightly better. I had told my Mum and that I don’t feel as guilty as before. I don’t feel guilty that I did not tell Mum as his Mum did asked me once. Maybe, that’s how it’s going to end.
