A sudden surge of sadness just struck me yesterday when I was out with G, YY, SL and the girl SL is interested in. It wasn’t painful, but rather, very sad. It was something that I can’t explain and I don’t understand why the sadness. Was it because everyone has found their happiness while I’m still alone? Did I do the wrong things by steeping into it as I was rushing myself to find a guy?
I cried to sleep and woke up crying again. Why? Why are all these happening to me when I just want to forget the sadness and never to think about it? Why can’t I just lead my normal life and not think about all these unhappy moments? I should just think about the happier times and forget about the unhappy ones. Easier said than done, but I need to do it.
Yes my dear, I CAN DO IT! No matter what! I can’t let my friends down. They have been my greatest pillars for the past few weeks, especially G. I am so grateful to her and YY. They both have been very encouraging. Though I don’t really know YY, he has been a very nice and good bf to G. He never complained about me joining them for movies, dinner and etc. This is why I felt sad that they have been trying so hard to make me happy and turn my life back to normal. Thank you my friends. For you all and myself, I will pull through this and not let all of you down. I just need more time…
